Currently I am:
I am so busy with so much work. I stress myself with these things. I can’t help but ask the questions ” Is it all worth the stress? What for? DO I really love what I’m doing? Will I still do this next year?”
I have to admit I’ve been biting more than I can chew. I started this year full of ambitious and hope for myself and the organization, but right now I’m coming to realize that I’m not enjoying any of these, except for the usher committee which I enjoy. I noticed that I’m not happy with most of the people I work with. It does not feel like I’m growing in that kind of environment.
Honestly, I don’t care if it’s going to be nice on my CV, that I’m part of the student organization. I don’t even plan on getting a job in the industry after I graduate. I want to go to Africa and be a missionary there. I want to serve people even if it means I’ll only earn a small income.I want to do something that would mean something. Something that would stress and wear me out, but at the end of the day would be the reason why I will sleep with a smile on my face and would warm my heart.
I’m starting to rethink all the things I’m doing and if it’s helping me reach my dream.